So over the past two days I've been really struggling what to actually blog about. I have tons of rants and tirades, diatribes, if you will, but I kept deleting what I was writing. Why you ask? Well it is not a simple answer, but I'll try and keep it simple. I am tired of the negativity I'm seeing flooding my social media sites. I kept thinking, while deleting, do I really want to add to the pile of blech that is already out there? No, I really don't. Last night, after talking with my hubby, I ditched the idea that I had. I want you to come here not knowing what to expect and after reading and the eye strain subsiding to be amused, entertained, and shaking your head at my shenanigan's. Not all mopey, ranty and depressed. There's enough of that out there already and I don't want to be adding to that particular pile of **BEEP*! Yes, I'm not swearing, even though I want to, and I often do...but I made a promise to myself a long time ago that on the great wide world that is the interwebs you just don't know how old the person is that's reading...so I may slip a minor swear, I am trying to steer clear of the average to severe ones. Without further ado, or even an idea let's start blogging!!
I don't have a plan. I HAD one and well, as you already read, didn't work out so much. It's like that with art. You have this amazing plan...you see it crystal clear inside your noggin...you sit down and try and get it into reality and BAM! Nothing. Just crickets...and frustration. You keep trying and trying and the more you try the more the creative monsters get locked away in cages...before you know it, all your creative monsters are lined up in cages in what looks like a cell block. (See what I did there?) Then you are left searching for the keys'. Every artist has their different methods of overcoming a block. I do a lot of things to try and find those pesky keys'. Sometimes it's just stepping away for a few days...sometimes it's sitting in front of a blank canvas and just forcing crap out...and it usually is just that...crap. Until one point...it begins to start feeling better, looking better...suddenly you found a few keys'! Or you don't. It's not a black and white method, nor is there a specific time frame for how long (or short) you are blocked for.
Thankfully, my latest block, was a shorter version. I did both methods...then I started the dreaded procrastination. That's another big one for us artists'...let's avoid it at all accost and magically it'll all go away, we will find world peace and be rejoiced...okay well maybe not THAT far, but you get the point. I am happy to say I am "arting" again...not everything is spectacular...but I'm arting. That is what matters. I even have something (it will be debuting tomorrow) that I have been wanting to do for quite awhile now. It was created out of pure feels, and that's a rare thing for me. You are probably questioning me right now...so let's head to the next paragraph for another tidbit about lil' ol' me.
I am a very logical person. There I said it. I know you are thinking but but but you are an artist, you are supposed to be fueled by the feels. I'm really not. Don't get me wrong, I do have emotions, I get the feels, but I don't react to them nor do I allow them to take the controls. Sometimes I think that is the core of my blocks is that I keep my emotions under too much control. I do let them come out on the canvas and run amok (amok amok...you cannot say that word once...you just can't). I don't know a ton of artists' but I do know our stereotype that we are emotional basket cases just ready to explode all over humanity. Think of all the older greats...they all had their oddities...and I know I have plenty of my own, but allowing my emotions to rule over me, is not one of them. I think sometimes it may hurt me as an artist, but it's who I am. I don't want to change it, even if I could. It's who I am. In the same hat I also think it puts a unique stamp on my artwork. That while I'm letting my emotions go on the canvas that logical side is still the thing that is in control. Hence, my earlier blog about how I "warm" up and how I've scratched the hell out of my poor Wacom. I don't like to lose control. It's a methodical process for me.
Well I think we'll wrap it up there...before the eye strain becomes to great. For not having a topic in mind, I think I did a pretty good job. I am off to "art" and create more things for you to devour with your mind...I wouldn't suggest trying that literally, if you try and eat your monitor I'm sure there may be electrocution involved, or at least having to replace the monitor...or if you have some of my art physically, don't put it in your mouth, I used toxic materials. Just because I'm logic driven doesn't mean I'm a robot, Spock-like person, far far from it. Ask anyone who knows me...I'm hard to keep up with, but I just don't let my emotions get the best of me. Toodles for now...until the next random or perhaps planned blog!