You all might be wondering, or not, where am I and when am I going to return?!?! I can't give a hard date, yet. But I can say soon! I will get into that in just a bit! There's a lot to get through...and there will be no special purple links...this is a pure blog of me being a windbag! I want to for sure let you all know what has been happening and what has not been happening...and everything relevant and probably a lot of not relevant verbal vomit of goodness...hmmmm may be the first time vomit and goodness has been used in the same sentence? Perhaps!
Okay, so where I have I been? I have been struggling...to art, to how I want to come back, to how much I will be updating...all the fun stuff. I have been arting...which is so awesome! Finally! I am not quite happy with what I'm doing, but I never am, so nothing new there...but the urge is back and so is the urge to blog! YAY! I didn't think it was going to come back...but it has and I am welcoming it with open arms and tendrils, tentacles...no I am not Cthulhu but those of you that know my art, know what I'm saying. That was the biggest thing for me to even consider coming back from sabbatical.
Before the urge came back I was playing the few video games I can play quite often. I do still want to continue to do them when I'm back. I am not sure how I'm going to balance everything but that will be a bridge I will burn when I get to it. The games I play do inspire me to art and give me twisted ideas...and some are stuck in my noggin' and I can't quite get them out...yet. I really didn't expect to be gone for as long as I have...and I am still going to take my time...and a few things MUST happen before I come back.
What are these things I speak of?! Well number one is the PC needs a lobotomy...big time. I have a few new brushes that my poor little PC's brain cannot handle...so that is the number one thing that needs to be done before I come back. When will that happen? I have no clue but soon. There is no set date when we are getting both PC's lobotomized...but they both need it. By both, I mean the hubby's too! Remember him? He's been amazing throughout my sabbatical...and very helpful on keeping me sane-ish! There have been times when I was so scared that my urge to art and blog were just gone, not even a hint was there. His wisdom and reassurance has been and always will be a huge influence on why I do what I do.
A few other things is wanting to start selling my digital files as well as keeping my store open. Plus possibly finding a new store...one I actually have to apply to become an artist there. That is as big as actually launching my art, and stopping the hiding behind the Cosmic Cow Creations brand. I am also looking into doing a podcast or artcast...I'm not sure where that is going at this point. I know there will be no video of me because I am not photogenic...at all. Period. No. But maybe a video of the arting process...that's a real possibility which I do have the means to do, I think? I've not looked into that too much at this point. So who knows! The lower on the list is maybe offering up critique's and mentoring for a small fee. That I have no idea if I will do, as it will be online...again I can do it and have done it...but do I want to travel that road, again? I don't know. Hence being low on the list, that and it will take away from my arting. That is to be sure.
In the non-arting thing...I am just getting over a bad plague. This one was a doozy...and still is plaguing me with a damn cough...see what I did there?! That is the most recent of events...remember I try and keep my life as drama free as possible and as mindful as possible. I have been struggling with both a bit? Nothing I can't handle, but still very trying at times. I did manage to not completely fall apart during the plague...which that is a huge accomplishment for me. I am reading my go to when I'm sick book. I've been reading a lot during this break. Another thing I don't want to give up. There have been some game sessions, lots of Days of Dad...and just me trying to figure out where the hell I want to go in life, arting wise and non-arting wise. It's been quite the ride.
All I can say is soon! The urge is back...but there are things I need to research and plan, mull, ponder and the PC lobotomy before I can come back officially. I don't want to come back before most ducks are in a row, and behaving in wildly inappropriate ways! You wouldn't think I would want tame ducks, right?!
I hope this blog lifts the mystery of when I will be back...except it causes more mystery as I cannot set a date. I do want to do something special for when I'm actually back as well! Not sure what the hell that's going to be...see the mulling and pondering that I have to do? But I do want to do something for all those that have stuck by me through the sabbatical. It has not been easy for me to just stop...and now it's a bit intimidating knowing that soon I will be back. Can I do it? Will I burnout again? What pace am I going to set? I can say not 60+ hours a week. That I can say for sure is NOT going to happen. I think I may make a pie chart...mmmmmm pie! As pie never lies and it will give me a visual of how much time I want to spend on what and what I actually want to do! If/when I make that chart I'll probably post it here! And on FB and on Twitter...
For now, dear minions, I will bid you an adieu and say I miss you all. And soon I will be back.