The sabbatical is what I need right now. The burnout is bad. From arting to the social media...I had the urge and fear to blog, so I said, "Self, you are not going to let fear stop you." And here I am. I have been doing sketches and managed a piece! That I'm not ready to show yet. So let's start a new paragraph on just the arting side.
I have gotten over my Mandala obsession and am on to a digital charcoal one. Which feels very organic and is testing my skills. Which I do love that challenge. I haven't been arting regularly...the urge comes and goes...and it's by far not steady, yet. I do give myself the time to art but I do not force it. I tried that, a few times, nope...I just walk away feeling flustered and annoyed. I still have fear that the urge will never come back fully. Which is scary, but I think in time, it will. I'm just not sure when. I wanted to be back this month, but I don't know if that will happen...that was my goal. The best intentions...as they say. I am growing as an artist...which leads me to a perfect segue card!!
I'm also growing as a human. Which may be interfering with the arting. I am figuring stuff out, and just really trying to be a better human every day. I think the figuring stuff out has me in the curfunkle of arting. Because as you all know I art creepy/cute stuff...but does that fit with the path I'm traveling on as a human. Not really, but that dark and creepy stuff is still there. I think it always will be. Finding the balance is the lock which I have yet to find the key to. I tried looking under the sofa, nope not there!
Lately I have been just reading a lot, enjoying the Day's of Dad and playing some video games. We haven't had a game session in quite awhile...and there was some drama there...so I'm not sure when that will start up again. I have gotten fed up being the one planning everything, of course with help from the hubby, down to scheduling the sessions and hosting. We had one planned and an hour before is when the drama hit. I was really looking forward to the game...and then it was gone...like trying to catch a cloud in your hand. The game does inspire me to art...I admit it...and I do miss gaming. My video games are inspiring but on a different level. So I have been tearing through books, at least 3 a week, sometimes more. Of every kind. Enjoying learning and being immersed into the non-fiction as well as the fiction.
Which leads me to, I really don't know when I will be back. I am thinking it may not be weekly, when I do. Maybe the blog. I have been flitting with the idea of actually trying to write a book...the ideas are there...but nothing outlined or set in stone. I am kind of scattered. And that's okay. I have really accepted a lot of what is going on during the sabbatical. There has been loss of minions, and also gain of amazing humans that are so supportive and just what I need. It's hard to explain what is going on in my noggin. I know I will be back to the arting and blogging more regularly...not sure if it will be weekly or just when I feel like it. Hence why this is an update not an announcement of a set date or even how it's going to be when I get back.
On that note, minions, I hope this blog is finding you well and happy and hopeful that spring is on it's way! Even if it means a time change of jet lagginess. Which I am experiencing...not enough coffee in the world...Until next time. My goal is to keep you updated, even if it's monthly...but I am really hoping to be back soon...but it's not yet. Toodles, Poodles!