My absence on hump day was due to a tremendous loss in many, many lives, not just mine. The world got just a bit darker on Wednesday morning when I woke up to find out that a beautiful soul, one of my second mom's had passed on. It wasn't a shocking loss, but the shock still came. Needless to say, I was in no shape to blog and even if I was, I couldn't. Out of respect for family and friends. I am keeping names private, as you all know I'm a fairly private overlord...errr...I mean person. I have to lighten this up, as my eye's are starting to leak.
I don't think any words could do my second mom justice. She was loved by many and loved unconditionally. She was brave and was battling cancer for many years. She is at peace now and no longer in pain. I have many amazing memories and she was an unforgettable woman. Her kindness, she genuinely cared and saw the good in everyone. Truly saw it...she was a rare gem in a world that's pretty messed up.
The loss of her rattled me to my core. I asked my Dad if it ever gets easier? He replied no...that he hated saying that to me, but it doesn't. I asked the peanut gallery the same question later...and he said if it becomes easier it means you are losing or have lost your humanity. The wise men in my life, gave me truth and helped me see it's okay to feel sad. All the feels that I'm feeling, it's okay to feel. I'm ever grateful for them being my rock in a world that right now to me is cruel. I know it's the cycle of birth, life and eventually and inevitably death. Doesn't mean I have to like it. I don't think any of us really likes the final stage.
I am coming to terms in my own way, I've been through a few stages of my grieving process. I say my because I think we all grieve differently. I think the textbook stages of grief is a very broad guideline, not set in stone rules. This year has been a year of loss. Of many dear loved ones. I am started to accept that is the stage of life that I have entered...I don't think I like this stage very much.
On that note dear minions, remember to tell the ones you love that you love them, you never know what life will throw at you. I also want to send safe wishes to those in the path of the many hurricanes we are having and had. A bit off topic, yes, but I felt that it needed to be said. Be safe, and I will see you on Monday. Until, then, I bid you an adieu.