I bet you are wondering why the hell there is an update on a Wednesday...Look no further I am here to tell you why. Because I want to...next...
Seriously this time...I was thinking about it, researching (don't look overly shocked...pick your chin up off the desk/floor where ever it dropped) and my calendar. I decided that today would be a better day to update. For me and hopefully for you, too. Today is technically my Monday, but since I don't really take days off, I just have shorter days than others, I thought let's try Wednesday...I am not a fan of change, but as an artist you kind of have to get used to the change. Changing and trying new things is where the growth and evolution of style happens...not only as an artist but as a human being in general. That and I get to say "hump" is just fun...yes I'm 12. Next!
I've been working digitally and traditionally and trying to keep up on the daily doodle challenges...The challenge has been the one thing that I've been having the most issues with. I am trying though. I am taking it to a whole other level by not only challenging myself to a doodle a day, but also choosing something I'm weak at drawing to sketch. To help with that pesky growth thing. Some pages of my sketchbook look like a hot mess...but I'm learning, growing, adding new tricks in my bag. I said tricks...That being said, I'm really pushing myself out of my comfort zone. Again, I think this applies to human beings in general as well as artists, but it's very very VERY easy to just stay in that zone of comfort and security. It's safe there, and warm, and there are kittens and puppies. What isn't there is growth and evolution. Scary words. So I've been trying to smash the box...I take the kittens and puppies out first, so no kittens or puppies were hurt in the smashing of the comfort zone box...and really challenge myself. So far, so good. I plan on keeping the challenges going..despite the fear that can be crippling.
Yup, fear. You read right. It's the bane and the antithesis of growth. It can block you, stunt you and keep you in that nice comfortable zone without you even realizing it's fear that's what is holding you back. Been doing some fear smashing, too. That is harder to do. Especially if you aren't aware of it being the reason you aren't pushing yourself. I am aware of it. I have tons of fears as an artist, I would say 95% are completely irrational, the other 5% involve perspective...just kidding, that's irrational, as well. It's quite a challenge overcoming the fear monster and saying I can draw whatever I want...and then following through, without the fears. My silliest fear is wasting resources...ink, paper, etc. It's one of the reasons I did try my hand digitally, so fear isn't always bad...but most of the time it is a monster that needs to be slain! I'm not afraid to "waste" my traditional resources for the most part. Every now and again I get that twinge...I ignore it, shove it in the comfort zone box and smash it with a hammer!
That lead's us to here, the now...then we'll get to the shenanigan's. I'm actually excited about the change in the update days, it will mean a bit of rearranging of my schedule, but as I said, I don't really take days' off, so it'll be a ripple, one of those speed bumps you see in parking lot and think, "really?! this little dinky thing is going to stop people from speeding in the parking lot?!". I've been experimenting with some new digital art styles/trends while trying to hold on to my signature style...so the challenge doesn't end with traditional, it's poured into my digital art as well.
Shenanigan's Time! Yesterday's rant (see previous blog) followed me. I was on a pure adrenaline rush until we got home. Which in turn, wiped me out. I was so exhausted by the time we got home. Costco was worse than it is around the holiday's. No joke...and driving was just pure joy. **hands minions towels to dry off from the dripping sarcasm** I was quite vocal with my "Polly Pissy Pants" mood that I was in. All day yesterday I felt like it was Monday, the day before I thought it was Tuesday. All out of sorts...but I did get some Don't Starve time in...
I died many times since the last time I have mentioned my peculiar little campy survival game. It never gets old...and the deaths are usually because I'm impatient. I am currently in "Hurricane Season" and happy collecting hail to make into ice so my poor little character doesn't spontaneously combust