The title, this time...has meaning. It's not just balderdash. We need to use that word more often...I like it. I am reading a book on arting. The feeling or what the author calls the intuition of art. I haven't made it too far in, I haven't had a lot of time to read, but from what I have read it for sure sparked some questions within my brain. I am very logical and it seems like an oxymoron to be logical and an artist...kind of like oil and water...but it works. For me, at least. I decided to mull, ponder and then blog about what conclusions I came to, and while I'm by no means the end all or be all of the subject, since art is very personal, I am the end all and be all for MY art.
Yes, I am logic driven...the feels are there, I'm not a robot or cyborg or cylon or anything...They are there...I just don't react to them. I have experienced and seen the aftermath of reacting to the feels, time and time again. I decided that it wasn't for me. I used to be very emotional...almost too emotional...while I'm still extremely animated when I talk and passionate, about things, the feels are not my go to for problem solving, even in art. I get asked a lot how I create what I create...and I can't say for sure...I just get an idea that pops in my head and go with it. I will say a LOT of my ideas do not see the light of day. Why you ask? Well some are just not strong enough, others are extremely taboo, the rest are just lost...I try and jot them down or sketch them out, but sometimes I get moving too fast and a lot get lost. This next part is going to sound a bit like I'm a sell out, but some are just not marketable.
I think the feels do get out in my art. I'm just not aware of them, maybe? I really don't know...I know when I get in the "zone" I think that is where the feels get released from their cages. Yes, I store them in cages in a dark closet. Don't worry they are well fed and taken care of. No feels were hurt in the making of this blog. I am aware of what I feel when I'm not arting, but when I'm doing the art I just am so focused that I often times lose track of time. That is the "mystical" zone I speak of. The book I'm reading says to really go off of your intuitions and your gut feelings...(as I said this is so far, I am not that far in) the next morning that I read that, my intuition or feels as I call them, were producing ideas that I could never under any circumstances draw. Not from the lack of ability...but from the fact that I do not want to be publicly flogged. Did I mention some of the ideas that pop in my head are taboo...yesterday was one of those mornings...full of them...to a point I almost got blocked because they wouldn't go back in their cages. Thankfully, they are caged and sedated. For now.
I mentioned the marketability earlier...I don't think of myself as a sell out. I do think that while I am trying to break that invisible barrier into Fine Art Land...I am at my strongest doing more of a graphic design/illustration. I will continue to pursue the fine art because I do enjoy it (LOOK!! I do have feels!!). That being said, I also know that my strong point is in other genre's. I juggle a lot of different styles. Trying to merge them into one. The piece I was working on before this blog has been set aside. After research, yup, more of that stuff...I found it wouldn't be that marketable. I do plan on finishing it. It is a great piece to get my hand warmed up...and eventually it will be done. I want to explore and grow in the genre's that I am strong in....there is ALWAYS room for improvement. The one thing I did get out of the book, so far, is changing the "I can't" to "I can". Self-sabotage is a very powerful thing. I think it goes under the heading of The Feels...which brings me right back to nothing good happens when you respond to emotions. I rest my case, your honour. Good day.
Needless to say, I know that my journey in the art world is going to constantly be changing, evolving and growing. I'm okay with that. There will be the feels...and for me I will temper it with logic. I know artists' that are purely emotional. It works for them...I know for me it doesn't. I don't think there is a right or a wrong way. I think it's a very personal choice...and you have to do what's best for you. That is the conclusion I came to. While there is a stereotype out there that all artists' are flighty and emotional. Weird, eccentric, the list goes on. While, I am weird and eccentric I am also very logical...it doesn't make me any less of an artist than a stereotypical one. Stereotypes are there for a reason...which is an entirely different blog. To sum up, I think that great art can be made by many types of people, whether they are driven by their feels or by logic or somewhere in-between. There is no absolute right way.
On that note, sorry for the eye strain my minions! I hope you are all having a lovely weekend! Remember to share and like and follow and retweet and smoke signal your friends and enemies...Toodles.